Monday, June 25, 2012
reflections from the orgasm atrium
When I woke up from my sleep all i could remember was the two black pillars floating in the dark I went to the bathroom and stared in the mirror and the pillars were still there surrounding me but the darkness was illuminating the pillars in a bluish black the image made my head ache and for the first waking minutes of the day I could not stop from seeing it I could not fathom why the image was so strong and a flood of dread rushed over my body I understood that the shock of awakening can stir emotions of dread sorrow and fear or like a false memory viewed from a distance that becomes terrifying and in the darkness i recognized the false memory of a violent act once commited was this a false memory or hallucination from decapitation this moment from a train between new york and main that left a man beaten with a tire iron and left in a car in a train yard and the men who witnessed it turned their backs and walked into the forest in a sign of solidarity to the cicumstances but also an abandonment of reason the next day i went to the clinic and spoke to someone and had a good chat about empathy then phenomenology and the religious experience and how the man i was speaking to once had a vision of being baptized in a river and could feel the water on his face and wash down his neck and when lying on the bank of the river he felt the sun beat down on him and the rays made his blood boil and he like it even now speaking about it his face began to sweet but this man chose to be an atheist for he had an unconquered believe in science and a love for the burnt and decaying the fosilised the halogens the sea and salt and how he once had a son and on the porch in the evening he would whisper ever violent act he knew into his ear like violence was a virus and he was copying its DNA and releasing it into his sons brain and When I left the office I found myself with no shape or form I fell to the ground and slid my fingers 1 2 3 into my anus and became a machine an orgasm machine and crawled across the grass my face in the dirt I crawled in pain and Ecstasy i came upon a rock and I rubbed against it until I came We now understand that plants cells communicate with one another and that rocks and other inanimate objects can have agency but the lives of rocks are quiet different from humans i placed the rock in my mouth the orgasm machine body inverted its erection the inside of my stomach became a topographical lasdscape the rock had made it home and into the night i crawled under the stars and sky an orgasm atrium was the earth
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